Today Again

I don't know why it is so hard to re-read journal entries from the past, I don't know what I am afraid of.  The feelings are just feelings.  I am not the same person I was in 2004.  I have grown, I look to God for my support and my guidance.  The anxious feelings come and I dismiss them, let them go.  The sadness for what our situation was sits upon my heart, and I know that I am really not sad today.  I do have feelings of uncertainty.  I still fall prey to the disease of addictive thinking.  I just wish Mike would call us.  That's all.  I want to know he's okay.  You, Lord, heard my prayers in the past and hear my prayers today.  Please take care of my son, Mike, today!