It has been a long road for me to get to that very point. That point of feeling that I "no longer need to have a sense of control, that things will flow as they will". I believe that to be true, but have continued with questions, doubts and concerns about the changes that I face at work, changes also in my personal life, health and struggles in parenting my adult children. (I think that is more difficult for me than parenting young children!)
Yesterday a sixth grade student came into my room to give me a card as we approach the end of the school year. She is a former student who I taught for 3 years in the Bilingual Resource Room, and then she ultimately transitioned out of the program. She wrote me the nicest note about how I taught her English and helped her to get good grades. It really touched me and filled me with emotion. I rarely get that kind of feedback from students about my work! It is for those kinds of tiny moments that I do what I do! It was also the boost I needed at that moment to motivate me to go back into the Resource Room and do what I can do to be the best teacher I can be in that role!
Oswald Chambers in "My Utmost for His Highest" (6/3) said:
"Have we let God tell us His joys? Are we so intimately united to Jesus Christ's idea of prayer..."Your will be done." (Matt 6:10) that we catch the secrets of God? What makes God so dear to us is not so much His big blessings to us, but the tiny things, because they show his amazing intimacy with us---He know every detail of each of our individual lives."
The card was a "tiny thing". It carried a profound spiritual message to me, from God.
"You have a gift, use your gift and your love to do My will for you. You are a good and faithful teacher."
Thank you, Lord, for coming to me in the "tiny things". A beautiful sunset that Doug and I shared looking at the same sky while talking on the cell phone, a smile from Jack, a hug from Mike. Thank you!
As I face yet another challenge this week, surgery to add a lead to my pacemaker, I read from Ephesians a wonderful promise:
"I pray that your hearts will be flooded with light so that you can understand the wonderful future He has promised to those He has called." Ephesians 1:18
