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We will know when to go, to stop, to wait. We will learn to great truth:
The plan will happen in spite of us, not because of us.
I pray today an each day that my thoughts, words and actions may be divinely led. I pray that I can move forward in confidence knowing my steps are guided."
-Melody Beattie The Language of Letting Go (2/11)
"Why are we terrified for God to speak to us? Because we know that when God speaks we must either do what He asks or tell Him we will not obey."
-Oswald Chambers My Utmost for His Highest (2/11)
Strangely, lately, the thought of a change has been filtering into my mind. I am confused by it. This is especially true when it comes on the job front. I truly felt called to serve at Fox School, brought here out of the blue, fulfilling a life-long dream of mine to work in the public schools and to be a bilingual teacher.
As I pulled into the parking lot yesterday I was listening to a song by Third Day called "Revelation":
Give me a revelation,
Show me what to do
Cause I've been trying to find my way,
I haven't got a clue
Tell me should I stay here,
Or do I need to move
Give me a revelation
I've got nothing without You
I've got nothing without You
I'm not sure of the exact words, but as I got into the car at the end of the day, I heard the very same exact song again as I was pulling out...and it freaked me out.
Tell me should I stay here,
Or do I need to move?
I recall a foggy early morning drive in to the Fox School parking lot several years ago, when I was frustrated with the situation at Fox and I had asked about other positions in the district because I felt the pressure of the position.
As I drove into the parking lot there was a certain glow around the gigantic pine tree in the driveway and the sun was shining through the fog onto that tree in such a beautiful way and I remember thinking, "This is a sign from God".
I stayed and weathered the trials and it has been good! Now I am feeling those strange vibes of something calling me, a change, I need a revelation.
Give me a revelation
I've got nothing without You
I've got nothing without You
I move today with the certainty that my steps are Divinely guided! I am listening! I just need to know if the call is truly from God.
And I wonder at how the "inkling" of change whispers to me in the words of a song and I wonder at how You, Lord, prepare me and get me ready for "real" change. I felt that "twinge" of discontent, heard a song, and have given myself an attitude adjustment. My principal will leave at the end of this school year.
Tell me should I stay here
Or do I need to move?
Perhaps the change I felt was simply this. I still need the discernment and wisdom that only God can give me, help and love, I need patience for the transition, love for the kids, and stamina to keep learning and growing as a teacher!
"And the only way to live an undefeated life is to live looking to God"
-Oswald Chambers My Utmost for His Highest 3/6
So I go today and face You,
look to You,
and live
undefeated
unflapped by change
dedicated
full of Your spirit
in me
moving me
loving me!
I go, I do, but always,
like a sunflower,
face fixed on the sun
I turn
and look
to YOU
the source
of all my
strength,
energy
and
POWER!
-Gail Mehlan 3/6/09
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